Pretty soon it will be the new year. And each new year there are new plans and new systems to get your life organized, to become healthier and more productive. This kind of attitude applies to our spiritual lives as well. Many are motivated to ask how they can spend more consistent time with the Lord. How can they finally read through the whole Bible? Now I have no problem with being productive – I love checking off boxes as much as anyone, and spiritually speaking, bearing fruit is a biblical theme – but I sometimes chafe at the systems, the schedules, and the trackers. These things are helpful in prioritizing and organizing, but I also find them to be a hindrance if I’m not careful. How you ask? When they become a straightjacket of duty that defuses delight in God or maybe even an idol that you serve instead of a tool to a greater end.
All Christians should value a personal devotional life, but what that looks like in practice varies from person to person. And it should. One person is a single adult male with a rather predictable schedule every day. He can set up a routine where he spends a certain amount of time every day in Bible reading and prayer. Another person is a young mother of multiple small children. Her days are anything but predictable. She may have to wake up multiple times during the night. She may have very little to no quiet time to herself. Should she expect her devotional life to look like that of the single man? Of course not! That would be silly and almost cruel. It’s also a helpful thought experiment to apply this line of thinking globally. What does it look like for the persecuted Christian in North Korea to have a personal devotional life? What about the family hunkered down in war torn Kiev or the poor single mother in the Kibera slums of Nairobi, Kenya? If your expectations of the Christian’s devotional life cannot accommodate these people and their unpredictable situations, those expectations may become a legalistic yoke on the necks of our fellow brothers and sisters. You also may have felt the yoke of expectation resting heavy on your own neck. I know I have.
We’re Not Machines
Teaching on devotional practices has emphasized good things – consistency, reading schedules, prayer lists, and quiet ‘times’ – but maybe we haven’t emphasized them in the context of who we are as human beings: created, dependent, vulnerable, and weak sinners. If we present our systems and schedules as a kind of plug and play scenario without acknowledging our human nature, we make humans out to be little more than machines. Machines can run continuously if given enough energy. They can be programmed to operate on a predictable schedule. But our energy waxes and wanes. Our affections and motivations are muddled. We get sick. We have trouble sleeping. The dishwasher breaks, again. We also don’t acknowledge the reality of the seasons of life. People obviously experience different seasons of life, whether that be the intensity of parenting young children or the stress of caring for older parents. But somehow we don’t think we’re allowed to adjust our expectations for our devotional lives in response to these things.
We don’t do ourselves or others any favors if we expect our days to run seamlessly without interruption. These expectations actually prevent us from experiencing God’s mercy and grace in our weakness. It’s in our honest confession of inability that we enter into the divine strength that is found only in Christ.
We Think We’re Earning
A sneaky thing happens, at least to me, when I start depending on systems and schedules. I begin to believe that my implementation of these things and my accomplishment of the daily tasks earns blessings from God. And if I don’t? Well, I secretly believe I have lost the favor of God. Jerry Bridges talks about this in Chapter 1 of his excellent book, The Discipline of Grace. He calls it the problem of good day/bad day thinking. If we’ve had our ‘quiet time’ that morning and everything has gone pretty smoothly, we think that God is on our side and we can expect his favor. But if we’ve slept through our alarm, yelled at the kids, and ignored the Holy Spirit’s promptings, we believe that we’ve forfeited all chance of being used by him and we wallow in our failure. Bridges explains the problem behind this way of thinking:
Such a reply reveals an all-too-common misconception of the Christian life: the thinking that, although we are saved by grace, we earn or forfeit God’s blessings in our daily lives by our performance.
Bryan Chapell, in his book Holiness by Grace, agrees with Bridges and uses a parable of Jesus to put a sharp point on the subject. In Luke 17:7-10, Jesus tells the story of the unworthy servant who earns nothing from doing his duty, not even a ‘thank you’ from his master. Chapell admits that this parable makes us uncomfortable, but the point is this – our works do not earn us entry into God’s kingdom. He says, “However much we may want – or feel the need – to trophy our good works before God in order to merit his acceptance, our accomplishments remain insufficient to obligate him to care for us as members of his family.”
Chapell goes on to quote Martin Luther’s own struggle with this way of thinking:
I myself have been preaching and cultivating it [the message of grace]…for almost twenty years and still I feel the old clinging dirt of wanting to deal so with God that I may contribute something, so that he will have to give me his grace in exchange for my holiness.
We Forget the Goal
Once we come to grips with the honest truth that our status with God is completely unearned and freely given to us by grace through faith in Jesus Christ, that may reveal our true motivation in doing all these things. If my true motivation was tied up in a belief that I was earning (or forfeiting) the blessings and favor of God, then I’ve forgotten the goal of devotions in the first place.
But if my status with God has been freely given to me by what Christ has earned in my place, and his merit has been transferred to my account, then I am secure and free to come to God and enjoy communion with him without fear that my performance will affect his love for me. I can decide to use a reading plan or not, I can even quit a reading plan (!) if it is causing me anxiety and stress instead of fostering communion with the Lord. I can decide to spend 10 minutes or 3 hours with God based on my season of life or the way the Spirit is moving in my spirit that day.
This way of speaking about devotions and discipleship may cause some people to be nervous. “Are you saying people don’t have to do devotions? Are you saying that a quiet time isn’t necessary?” Yes and no. You will not earn more favor with God by your works, even the good work of a quiet time. But you won’t grow closer to God without a regular practice of communion with him through Bible reading and prayer. My point here is how we talk and teach about these things. If the conversation isn’t suffused with gospel truth and our practices aren’t driven by grace, then our devotional practice just becomes empty ritual and a striving to justify ourselves.
The goal is God. The way we get to him is by faith in Christ through the power of the Spirit using the Word and prayer. Remember that because of grace, you are free to use whatever other tools you desire, but beware that the tools are just that – tools. They have no power in and of themselves. However you do your devotions, it is the Spirit who gives life. (John 6:63; 2 Cor 3:6) So this new year, pray most of all for the Spirit to fill you and to give you a hunger and thirst for the Lord and his Word that you have never had before.